Thoughts from the casino

Yes, you read the title right and can interpret it as it is written. I am blogging in the casino. Does this give you a clue as to how my luck is?

Here are my thoughts as I sit at the slot machine and mindlessly push the button:

Hmmm... I'm not really winning, but I'm not losing either.

I imagine it would be easy to dehydrate while sitting here... I imagine the news story reading "Woman dehydrates while sitting at slot machine because she just couldn't risk losing it to another."

I notice the walls by the bar area are painted the same color as the walls in our new home.

I start thinking about our new home and feel content sitting at this same machine... I could sit here and push this button all day. (uh huh)

I start thinking about the wife... Where is she anyway. I wonder if she's winning or losing. I hope she's winning.

I then start thinking that I really miss her. She's so stressed right now... I'm ready for all if this upheaval to be over so I can have her back again.

Then I lose my money...

And so folks, here I sit... Blogging and wondering how long I'll sit before I lose all self control and withdraw more money from the bank.

Off I go now!



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Just in case...

This particular entry will serve as a picture memorial to my home... Just in case. If you're curious, please read my last blog entry.

                                        Heading out to dinner on my 40th!

                                         Our Patio...

                                         Love the paddle boat... we would sure miss that!

                          

                                         Smores by the water... love the outdoor fireplace!

                                         Birthday memories in the kitchen

                                        Say cheese! Enjoying the Spring weather

                                          It's so beautiful in the Fall

                                      

                                                  Tulips on the breakfast counter....

                                         We have so much to enjoy just outside our windows!

                                         This is perfectly peaceful to me

                                         Down by the water...

January 18, 2011-Wonderful Possibilities

January 18, 2011

As I sit down to write, I’m trying to ignore this heavy feeling in my heart by offering an appeal to my “sensible” side, but I am left with the not-so- gentle reminder that change doesn’t quite suit me. I guess we could say it isn’t the strongest aspect of my personality. Especially when there’s risk involved. Maybe a change worth making involves a bit of risk though? 

I feel for the wife. I know that a LOT of this falls on her shoulders. She has a lot of “balls in the air,” as she would say. The main one being her business... does she sell her half, keep it and push on, wait to see if an outside buyer has an interest? It’s a scary thought... The “what if’s” are numerous.   

The other “ball” is our home... hence the heavy heart. I love it. I love our back yard with the water and San Antonio Riverwalk type atmosphere. It’s so peaceful, yet we’re right right in the middle of Dallas... you can’t beat it! Or, maybe you can... We want big closets, we want a media room, we want a game-room, and... the most important thing we want is WATER... now granted we have water, BUT we want lake or ocean, and we found it. Wow, did we ever find it... Walking in this home, it’s as if it is actually on the water. Amazing.... amazing home, amazing views. The only risk here is monetary. That’s a huge risk, but we are both able bodied and talented. I could always teach full-time should the need arise, and she has many options. 

So, we saw the house yesterday and today a “for sale” sign is sitting in our yard. How does this happen? The wife goes out of town, the agent comes over to talk and see the house, and now there’s a sign. I’m not going to panic over this. What an amazing opportunity we have in front of us.... a chance to take our lives by the reigns and do something new and special... it’s business and it’s personal. It’s a wonderful possibility....

Amazing Grace - Rhema Marvanne 7 yr Gospel singer

This little girl has the most amazing voice...

What if...

What if...

You knew these next few months were your last here on earth?

What would you do? 
Would you live every day to its fullest doing what you love doing?


What if....

You knew you would lose your vision or your hearing?

Would you notice the first blooms on the trees?
Would you take time out to enjoy a sunrise/sunset?
Would you hear the birds singing?
Would you take a mental picture of everyone you love... their smiles and their laughter?

What if...

You knew your marriage would fail before your vows were spoken?

Would you still get married?
Would you try to find out why it failed and fight to make it work?

What if...

You were given the opportunity of a lifetime but without guarantees?

Would you take it and run with it?
Would you take the chance?

If you answered yes to any of these questions tell me this: Is this how you're living your life now?

Why do we need the "What if" to realize how precious life is, and how blessed we truly are?

Today... 1/11/11

Seriously...

Today:

Rise and shine, it’s 7am! I get up, get the kids up, and get my coffee. In an effort to save money (and it’s quite a bit of money when you consider how much Starbucks is), I’ve stopped going to Starbucks on a daily basis. The wife still gets her iced lattes, and I do make the trip for her on my off days, but overall, I’m saving us at least $130 a month or more! Of this, I am proud. 

At work we do the usual routine and I do my best to leave as soon as my Kindergartners do... 

The children and I then come home. I sit down and read the news. They scatter and are hopefully doing homework. Then I do my house-wifely duties. I still consider myself a house-wife since my work day ends at 11:30. I do laundry, dishes, clean out our huge Christmas stocking bags (This is always fun... the gifts in them are either hilarious, or something needed around the household.), then I head back upstairs to, well, take medicine. I am NOT happy about this at all....

Over the holidays, there were a few things that kept me offline and away from my writing. Family, shopping, cooking, AND pneumonia... sick, right before Christmas and right before the family came visiting. I’ve been feeling great for  few weeks now, and I really didn’t think I was taking advantage of it. Apparently, I was enjoying this healthy feeling a bit too much, because once again... my head is killing me, my nose is sniffly, I can’t hear anything, and my throat hurts. I’m not whining... ::ahem:: 

The good news is that I already have antibiotics. They prescribed them to me when I had pneumonia, just in case my pneumonia was an infection and not viral. (My blood counts are messed up, so it’s very hard for them to tell whether I have an infection or a virus when I’m ill.) I decided my pneumonia was viral and didn’t take the antibiotic. 

Anyway... I suppose I should get going. There is a dinner to cook, and a television show to watch. I have, once again, been unwittingly pulled into watching The Bachelor. We recorded it last night because at the time it came on, the game of THE CENTURY was also on, and there was no way I would have forgiven myself for missing my Auburn Tigers win the national title! War Eagle!!!  

Promises...

Promise me this...

Promise me you’ll love me forever, even when I’m not being very  lovable.

Promise me you’ll never hurt me.

Promise that you’ll never lie to me. 

Promise me you’ll always be there in times of need, BUT most important, in times of joy too.

Promise that I’ll never have to worry about being alone again.

Promise me a lifetime of happiness.

Promise me a lifetime... 

Just some things rolling around in my head. I’m working on fulfilling one of my promises to myself as I write this. That promise is to write something every single day. 

I hope everyone has a wonderful evening... I’m gearing up for a great football game. Go Auburn Tigers... War Eagle!!