Kicking and Screaming

I don't have any idea how long it's been since I've blogged. I suppose since January 15th, 13th, I dunno.

SO I am stepping back in to the blog-o-sphere... if only for one night. This is our last night of vacation. The wife surprised me with a trip to Big Sur, and Carmel, before we open our business in ten days. TEN days. I'm freaking out, of course, and having second thoughts, thinking things like "OH my God, what have I done?"

So, yeah, I don't want to go back.  I love it here. This is my Heaven on earth.  I want to move here. Don't get me wrong, I'm not the kind of person who wants to move to every place they vacation in. I mean, last year, we took an amazing cruise, with my favorite place to visit, being Virgin Gorda. The hot springs, the huge boulders on the white sand beaches. I loved it, but I didn't want to live there. I was ready to come home. Not this time, and not the last time we came here. I love Cali because it has everything I've always said I've needed to feel at peace, in my life. It has my mountains, ocean, white sand beaches with huge boulders, and valleys. I want to live with mountain behind me, and ocean in front of me. I want to live on the cliffs of Big Sur. This is where I feel most at peace. I love watching the waves roll in. I love the smell of the air, not just the ocean air, but the woodsy areas, and the residential areas. Yes, of course we visited the residential areas. We googled the homes with the views, and we set out goal. This is our last stop on the highway of life. In other words, we're moving here. We can't move here right away, due to familial obligations, but we have yet another goal to work toward... one last BIG dream to achieve.

As far as the past dreams... we've done well. We have a beautiful home, a LOT of fur babies, and now we're finally opening our business. We bought the building LAST August, and the city gave us a run for our money at every freakin' turn. Well, not the city, just one gentleman who works for the city. We thought he was representative of everyone who works there, but alas, he is not. Thank God.

People seem to be excited about our business. We are teaming up with a few others to make this a great success. I'm a nervous wreck. I know this has been my dream, but I'm not stupid enough to believe it won't come without a TON of stress, and worry. People don't really seem to understand how much of ourselves, and our money we've poured into this, which is fine. It is a little frustrating though, to have someone say things like "Well, all you can do is try, and if it doesn't work..." Um, no. It NOT working is NOT an option. This has GOT to work.

Anyway... it's time for me to go. I think the wife will be dragging me from here tomorrow... kicking and screaming. I know it's time to get back to life, but we will be back nex, and the year after... until we are finally able to move here.

I promise to try to blog more! So much has been happening, and we've been crazy busy with getting the business ready to open. Hence this vacation. The wife and I needed it. We've spent these past 6 days cruising the coast, and sleeping. We needed a recharge!

Oh Boy, Day 15, 2013

How does this happen? I mean, January is already half way done. I wish I could say I've done some wonderful things so far this year, but I have not. I mean, I have had a little fun... We got to go to the Cotton Bowl, and watch the Aggies win. That was fun. I was able to at least get the city our business is going to be in, to give me an application for a contractor's permit, so we can get moving on making the changes needed in our building. NOW, I'm waiting for the city to email or call, telling me to come pick up our permit. This whole "working with the city" thing is frustrating.

Anyway... I'm not here to talk about that. I'm here to talk about "rights." You know, those things people fight for, go to court for, take a stand for.

I think our fight for equal rights here in America is often screwy. I think the things we end up fighting for aren't things that are beneficial to our country, or to ourselves. Or the things we fight for, are often abused because "Hey, we have that right now!" How can we raise our children to take a stand for what is right, when the examples being set are so screwed up. I know, I know... this is all a matter of opinion. What I think is worth fighting for, may or may not be worth it to another. I get it, but lets talk about this, shall we...

Gays and lesbians have been fighting for equal rights to marriage for a long time (this isn't about gay and lesbian, so stick with me for a minute). This is a huge issue, because adult human beings are being told they cannot do what other adult human beings are doing, because of their choice in who they want to do it with. They are looked down upon, and deemed unworthy.

SO, let me just say, since people have fought long hard for our right to legal marriage, then that right needs to be respected. In other words, don't run off, and get married after a year of dating because it's legal. Have a ceremony if you must, but before you make it legal, make sure it's right. Show the people who don't deem you worthy, that you can do this right (as compared to the many others who possess this right without having had to fight for it---the straight people.) I just get disgusted with people who run to another state to get married after dating for a short amount of time, and then 6 months later, they have to file for divorce. Wait it out, make sure it's right. Don't ask me the amount of time to wait. I've no idea. I say get to know each other well. Let that romance stage pass, because it will pass and life will get real. Live together... I mean, why not, you're already living in sin because you're gay, right? Anyway, I would give the "wait it out" advice to anyone, but please respect the fact that we've been granted these rights (in some states). Respect it enough to go into it, with the mindset that there is NO way out... if that thought makes you feel a little ill, then I'm thinking you better not do it.

Now what about the freedom of speech. Oh my, there is not a day that goes by, that I don't read, hear, or watch something about someone claiming their rights due to "freedom of speech." Just the other day, I read two news stories... not one, but two, about freedom of speech. In one story, the right to "flip off" a police officer actually made it all the way to the Supreme Court. In case you ever need to know this, we now have the right to do that, and it's okay! Hooray for laws backing our right to flip off someone who is paid very little for what they do... someone who may or may not make it home safely to his/her family because they are out there protecting us.

The other story was about a woman in Oklahoma whose Christmas light display was a huge hand flipping off her whole neighborhood. It was actually meant to only flip off the neighbor she had some disagreements with, but the whole neighborhood suffered through this. Police were called, and she was asked to remove it or be fined. We know what happens now, right? She goes to court to fight to leave this light display up not only through christmas, but the whole year... all the time. The case is currently pending, and I'm sure will eventually also make it to the supreme court.

Since when did our society become so distorted that our Supreme Court Justices are hearing cases like this? OH, and I would so be bragging if I were this woman, and I won this court case. "Look kids... Grandma won the right to flip the whole neighborhood off in a Christmas/whole year, light display!" "Now we can all enjoy the right to put obscene language on our homes for ALL to see." NOT!! Or, "Look kids, Daddy won the right for the whole country to flip off our police officers..." NOT!! Not, not, not. What is wrong with people? Gah!

Here are my guidelines for taking a stand.

Make it count. Make sure it's something that is going to be beneficial to society. Make it something you are proud to tell your friends, and kids/grandkids about. Will it benefit our community, city, state, country, or will it only benefit you in that moment. Hmmm... I don't know.

Okay... time to step off of my soap box now!

Day 4 of 2013

Whew, this year has been hectic! Ha, just kidding. I plan on going back to work Monday, so nothing has really been hectic for me as of yet. I should be feeling the pressure, but my procrastination, has somehow made me feel as if I have all of the time in the world to do what I need to do. I'm supposed to be working on an adaptive yoga certification, and an ABA assistant cert, but here I sit, drinking coffee, and planning out my household chores. FUN stuff, I tell ya'!

The start of the new year also rings in the return of my healthy ways. I have to admit, I'm worse now than I was at this time last year. I've slipped into all kinds of bad habits that I am now having to backtrack on, and fix. I was also very disappointed with myself for having to start a beginner's exercise program. Seriously?!?!?! I haven't been this out of shape in years... I mean, 10 at least. Plus, I've been dragging, mentally and physically. It's true what they say... you are what you eat. I've been eating a bunch of junk, and I feel like junk.

Anyway...
I'm pretty sure I haven't mentioned that we took in two puppies. That's it for this chick household. NO more animals. They haven't really changed the dynamics in the house though. They're very good little girls, and have sweet dispositions. I think they're adorable, but the wife thinks they're ugly. If I could post pictures of them I would, but I'm not purchasing more Google memory for a monthly fee, so you guys will have to take my word for it. I really need to get my Chicks' Facebook page up to date... maybe I'll just provide links for you guys to see the pictures there! Hmm... sounds like a good plan to me! My next blog post will have links.

I hope you ALL have a wonderful, amazing weekend! Fill that happy jar!!

Now I shall leave you with a song that I listen to over and over... I love it!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HoRkntoHkIE

"Settle dow-owwwwn, it'll all be clear. Don't pay no mind to the demons, they fill you with fear. The trouble it might drag you down... if you get lost you can always be found... just know you're not alone, 'cause I'm going to make this place your home..."

Happy Birthday 2013!!

This isn't going to be a post about anything in particular. In all honesty, I don't think I've ever really completely focused on one exact thing when I write my posts. It's not in me to do that at ALL!!

This isn't going to be a blog about New Year's resolutions... I've made those each year, and each year, I've started out staying committed, but then I fall. Oh, and when I fall, it's hard. In other words, if my resolution was to eat healthy, in order to fall hard, I not only don't eat healthy, but I eat things I'd usually not touch with a 10 foot pole, under the guise of "Hey, we only live once!"

This isn't going to be a blog about the world, or the state of our nation, or anything like that because again, in all honesty, I have no control over it, and see no reason to dwell, worry, or panic over it. I mean, I have a life I have to live, and I can't live it when I'm having panic attacks over things that I cannot possibly change.

This is just a post to check in... to say hi. To let you all know I hope you have a wonderful 2013. I'm doing a photo album on Facebook with at least 1 picture from each day of the year. I'm doing a "happy" jar, writing down the things that make me happy (big or small), that I will open at the end of this year.

I will make one resolution... I will try to blog more this year!