Unbelievable

I want to go back to this amazing place!!

I've been trying to keep my blogs either very bland or positive... I mean, who wants to read a bunch of negative stuff ALL the time, right? Well, I would just like to have the freedom to vent in this particular post.

This is how my head is right now:

"So and so is coming over, which means we need to know if the other so and so is coming over, we may do such and such, but if we do that I need to buy this, and then so and so may come on Saturday, but if they do I need to know if we're doing such and such." Okay... THAT alone makes me want to scream/cry!Why does it matter if so and so is doing what and if such and such will be done when so and so comes on Saturday and then... OH MY Gee, what did I just say?

So, as you can see, I'm a little wound up/stressed and I don't feel well. It started a few days ago after a blow up over another stressed situation. Then yesterday, this bad, bad feeling increased after our discovery that my car had been vandalized. I was so very upset. Picture a non-confrontational person such as myself barreling into the HOA office ranting..."I don't care whose daddy sits on the HOA board.... we aren't Muffy and Buffy sitting at the country club allowing ourselves to be victimized... We didn't buy that money-pit of an expensive home only to endure spoiled little delinquents... AND last but NOT least... I grew up in the slums of England, these kids don't have anything on me, I'm not afraid of them!!!" Oh yes... I was a littttttle unhappy. So, we filed a police report and we're buying cameras... we will catch these little %*&#s, or at least be proactive in the protection of our hard earned property! Hmphhhh!!

Anyway... after my rant, I had to get to a doctor's appointment, which I was thankful I had, because even though I was scheduled for a simple physical, I was not feeling well at all. The diagnosis... Costochondritis. This is basically an inflammation of the cartilage that connects the rib to the breastbone. The doctor prescribed Prednisone.. this will not be a good thing for the family when the effects of this drug set in. It makes me feel like climbing the walls, but it's either that or this terrible pain. I'll climb the walls... 

I warned the wife that I've already been up to my ears in stress, and highly wound up. This means that any melt down I happen to have, may or may not be due to what she calls the "steroid storm." The wife too has been stressed, and her MS symptoms have come back full steam. Together, we make quite a pair... 

Okay... let me get this straight:

Tomorrow night, so and so is coming over and then another so and so is coming and we're going to watch fireworks, either on the boat or from the backyard, but that all depends on how I feel, because there is no air outside which is not conducive to painful breathing, plus we may have to buy an extra life jacket, which I guess we could do on the way to the grocery store, because we need to feed all the so and so's and not have them drown, then we're going to say goodbye to them , and Saturday so and so is coming over, we'll have to park a car in front of the HOA office in order for so and so to park their car in our garage, in order to avoid vandalism, then we're going to store the guest dog in the guest room, and warn the children not to let the guest dog out, not that they would since they don't take care of their own dogs, then we can go with so and so to the casino, and on Sunday we will say goodbye to so and so and... and what? 

This too shall pass, right????

Amazing!

I'm amazed that I've now posted three nights in a row! I suppose this would be a form of procrastination. I have papers to grade and I have got to figure out how to enter these grades on the website.

For those of you who don't know, I'm officially a kindergarten teacher, but volunteered to teach high school summer school. I'm teaching Health and Government. It's really been a fun experience, but I forget how energy sucking the summer heat is here in Texas. I'm totally worn out!

Next school year I won't be teaching. The kids are going to a new school in our new town and hopefully the wife and I can get our new business off the ground! The only thing holding us back right now is the inability to sell our Dallas home. It's beautiful, so if anyone needs a home in Dallas, Texas, we'll make you a great deal!!

Okay... this is going to be a short one. I hope everyone has a great night!

Bad Teacher?

We didn't do a thing today except watch "My Big Fat Gypsy Wedding," and then later went to a movie. I'm not sure what's going on with me, that I would get wrapped up in such shows lately. First it was American Idol, then The Bachelor, The Bachelorette, Sister Wives, and now this. I won't even get into the others like Hoarders, Toddlers and Tiaras, and the crazy eating habits shows... OH... and Taboo... WOW! I'm filling my mind full of junk, but I am really in awe. The Toddlers and Tiaras show is a true embarrassment to the southern states... I can't tell you how many times I've seen children from around here and one was even from a school I worked at years ago!! I swear they're being taught to be strippers... bleh!

After officially exhausting myself mentally, we headed out to a movie... Bad Teacher... it was funny, but obnoxious in the humor department with little plot, and a lot of vulgar behavior. I have to say I did laugh, but I wouldn't recommend it... do NOT take your kids to it unless they're over 16.

My unofficial movie and television review is now over... I think it's time to head to bed. I'm worn out after my day of rest!

Time?

Okay, I'm not really sure what in my right mind made me think I would have time for anything when summer rolled around. For some reason I pictured peaceful mornings, drinking coffee (I really don't care anymore that it hurts my stomach), playing my Facebook games, and writing by the water. I have had a morning here and there, but I've been so exhausted, that I haven't had the motivation to do anything but stare at the water and wonder what has happened to my time, my days, and my mind.

The thing is, you couldn't get an answer out of me as to what has kept me so busy... life, I guess? There are days that feel jam-packed, yet not a thing has gotten done. Have you ever felt like that? I've had way more days like that lately.

I can tell you some things I've discovered lately...

1. The most recent thought is that I need to just change the name of my blog to "My Dysfunctional Family." Seriously... the girl had a few pictures in a gallery showing today, and let me tell you, the gathering of the family was clearly a dysfunctional function. We had the wife and I, the kids' dad, my crazy mother, my step-father, and the kids' dad's girlfriend. Not only did we go to the gallery, but also to dinner together. I'm only going to say this once... my mother is a major source of stress to me, whether she behaves herself or not.

2. I'm thinking the girl needs to become independent quickly. I'm not sure I can handle her living at home another few years. People can take this how they want... maybe I'm not teen-girl mother material... all I know is that this bi-polar craziness on a daily basis is not going to fly with me for much longer. Again I remind myself that it could be worse... I know it could. She isn't doing drugs, stealing, being destructive, drinking, or hell, even dating... she's just... crazy, and it's making me that way.

3. I'm not liking our new-found small town. I'm not hating it either... I'm just struggling. I have no friends and I feel isolated. I don't like not having my Cafe Brazil or Buli to hang out at on days I want to go somewhere to write or when the wife goes to play tennis. I'll never be good enough to play with her, so I sit home while she goes. It's not a bad place to sit, but... I don't know.
I miss the "real" people. The people we've met here thus far are "surface."

4. The wife and I are getting closer to putting my business idea into place. It's something I think we could pull off, especially in our new town (and surrounding towns). My business idea would hopefully allow us the opportunity to meet real, down-to-earth people. When we've gotten further along in it, I'll fill everyone in!

5. I guess that's all for now... I'm hoping to catch up with everyone's blogs on my next peaceful morning. I sure do miss reading about everything everyone is up to!! Now for some pictures from our lives... :)

We were lucky enough to go to two Maverick playoff games!!

C'mon Dirk!!

We got to go to tour the Cowboys stadium! It's beautiful.... too bad the team is so bad! No fun at all watching them play!

The boy on the boat

Ahhh, a whopping 28 mph!!

We have so many different beautiful pictures of the sky

The Sea Wolf in the sunset 

I know it's just water, but isn't it pretty?

A beautiful day in the neighborhood?

I'm not really sure why this song was in my head when I woke up this morning. I woke up cranky and out of sorts, so it's a little contradictory. How many of you watched Mr. Rogers as a child? I didn't like that particular show, nor did I enjoy the Muppets. Ms. Piggy and Kermit did nothing for me. I was a strange child, I know.

So anyway... a mood today. I'm not sure what it is, but I really need this go away. The wife and I seem to be going through a nit-picking (Is that spelled right?) phase. She picks, and I pick back. She tends to get pretty "upset" when I do that.

I'm not sure what's better... In the past I was passive-aggressive. I would keep quiet, holding everything in, until I popped. Popping is never good, because I never knew exactly what it would include. I'm not talking about yelling and throwing a fit... I'm talking about other self destructive, relationship destructive actions.

In all honesty, the "picking back," is actually an attempt to invoke some empathy... it never seems to work though. People can call me stubborn all day, they haven't gone 'round with the wife. She always brags about how high she scored in the empathy category in their "corporate" testing. Corporate is in quotes because I have a whole other set of opinions on personality testing your employees... first of all, it costs money, second, if you aren't going to make changes according to the results then why bother, and third, you were hired to do a job so do it and stop whining. ANYWAY... back to empathy... really??? I love her but when she's picking, pms'ing, moody, restless in her retirement... there is no empathy, sympathy, or anything else. I suppose she would say the same for me. I still think we handle ourselves well... we could be yelling, screaming, and driveway screeching ;)

Well, I do driveway screech, but not out of anger. The neighbors probably think we're nuts though. Our driveway is STEEP, and no one else on our street has a steep driveway. It's hard for me to back the wife's car out because it's bigger and heavier... so there have been times when I've pushed the gas a little too hard to avoid rolling forward... I get in trouble for that. It's the little things, ya know? ;)

Okay... time for me to get moving on my day... I have errands to run, then fun to have. I hope everyone has a great weekend!