Okay, I'm not really sure what in my right mind made me think I would have time for anything when summer rolled around. For some reason I pictured peaceful mornings, drinking coffee (I really don't care anymore that it hurts my stomach), playing my Facebook games, and writing by the water. I have had a morning here and there, but I've been so exhausted, that I haven't had the motivation to do anything but stare at the water and wonder what has happened to my time, my days, and my mind.
The thing is, you couldn't get an answer out of me as to what has kept me so busy... life, I guess? There are days that feel jam-packed, yet not a thing has gotten done. Have you ever felt like that? I've had way more days like that lately.
I can tell you some things I've discovered lately...
1. The most recent thought is that I need to just change the name of my blog to "My Dysfunctional Family." Seriously... the girl had a few pictures in a gallery showing today, and let me tell you, the gathering of the family was clearly a dysfunctional function. We had the wife and I, the kids' dad, my crazy mother, my step-father, and the kids' dad's girlfriend. Not only did we go to the gallery, but also to dinner together. I'm only going to say this once... my mother is a major source of stress to me, whether she behaves herself or not.
2. I'm thinking the girl needs to become independent quickly. I'm not sure I can handle her living at home another few years. People can take this how they want... maybe I'm not teen-girl mother material... all I know is that this bi-polar craziness on a daily basis is not going to fly with me for much longer. Again I remind myself that it could be worse... I know it could. She isn't doing drugs, stealing, being destructive, drinking, or hell, even dating... she's just... crazy, and it's making me that way.
3. I'm not liking our new-found small town. I'm not hating it either... I'm just struggling. I have no friends and I feel isolated. I don't like not having my Cafe Brazil or Buli to hang out at on days I want to go somewhere to write or when the wife goes to play tennis. I'll never be good enough to play with her, so I sit home while she goes. It's not a bad place to sit, but... I don't know.
I miss the "real" people. The people we've met here thus far are "surface."
4. The wife and I are getting closer to putting my business idea into place. It's something I think we could pull off, especially in our new town (and surrounding towns). My business idea would hopefully allow us the opportunity to meet real, down-to-earth people. When we've gotten further along in it, I'll fill everyone in!
5. I guess that's all for now... I'm hoping to catch up with everyone's blogs on my next peaceful morning. I sure do miss reading about everything everyone is up to!! Now for some pictures from our lives... :)
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| We were lucky enough to go to two Maverick playoff games!! |
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| C'mon Dirk!! |
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| We got to go to tour the Cowboys stadium! It's beautiful.... too bad the team is so bad! No fun at all watching them play! |
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| The boy on the boat |
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| Ahhh, a whopping 28 mph!! |
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| We have so many different beautiful pictures of the sky |
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| The Sea Wolf in the sunset |
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| I know it's just water, but isn't it pretty? |
2 comments:
I finally had some time to catch up with my blogging buddies!
Let me tell you I 100% know where you're coming from with the move. I too left a relatively large city and moved to a teeny little town. It really is an adjustment, the feeling of loneliness and "boredom" is very frequent in those first few months, but at least in my case it is totally worth it. I love my little "Nowheresville".
This is why I have so much time to plan weddings and make crafts! I live in a corn field and Hubby is working all the time. ;)
Give it some time. I think most of us go through what you're feeling when we move to a new town; especially when we're moving because of our spouse. It's kind of like we've followed along, and our hearts are still back where we came from.
I remember being in a mall and thought I was in the mall of my old city... getting frustrated as I looked for a store that wasn't there.
Eventually, I found friends, and it was the beginning of acceptance and a new home.
Your daughter...God bless you!
You mentioned reality shows on your other post. Have you watched the one with the 19 kids? I saw it one day and marveled. Everyone just flowed along contently. I'll bet it's not much difference when the cameras are off.
I wondered why just 3 kids challenge me! LOL
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