I've got nothing witty, funny, or even sarcastic to write about. To be quite honest, I'm a bit stressed about tomorrow. The wife seems confident that there nothing is wrong, and she has a great gut instinct, so I'm working on doing several things at one time so that I can forget to be worried.
I was actually doing okay as far as worry, until I got another call from the diagnostics center today. They like to call you the day before you go in, to explain your benefits and such, so you don't go in to have a procedure done, and then are shocked at how much you have to pay, because you haven't yet met your deductible. Whatever, I understand that, but I didn't know I was getting a sonogram along with the mammogram. Now see, that just increases my stress... ::sigh:: What are they seeing that makes them think I need that?!? Ugh!!! I'm not even going to list a bright side because I don't want to list it and then have the bright side of something not happening happen. Make sense? That's okay... it doesn't make sense to me either, but I'm not rewriting it, because that's just me thinking in print.
I didn't call the doctor today about the other test and the cyst they found. I decided I would call on my way out tomorrow, and then get the answer when I'm done at the diagnostic center. One thing at a time is all I can stress about right now. There cannot be anything wrong with me... I need to get our business up and running, my puppies need me, and those human children need me too. I even think the wife needs me.
Okay... enough of this for one night. I think I'm going to go read now. I hope everyone has a wonderful day tomorrow. I may post another blog in the morning, as there are many things to talk about other than my stress and worry. Before my tests, we're going to look at two more properties, but I think we've pretty much decided on a location. I hope!
I was actually doing okay as far as worry, until I got another call from the diagnostics center today. They like to call you the day before you go in, to explain your benefits and such, so you don't go in to have a procedure done, and then are shocked at how much you have to pay, because you haven't yet met your deductible. Whatever, I understand that, but I didn't know I was getting a sonogram along with the mammogram. Now see, that just increases my stress... ::sigh:: What are they seeing that makes them think I need that?!? Ugh!!! I'm not even going to list a bright side because I don't want to list it and then have the bright side of something not happening happen. Make sense? That's okay... it doesn't make sense to me either, but I'm not rewriting it, because that's just me thinking in print.
I didn't call the doctor today about the other test and the cyst they found. I decided I would call on my way out tomorrow, and then get the answer when I'm done at the diagnostic center. One thing at a time is all I can stress about right now. There cannot be anything wrong with me... I need to get our business up and running, my puppies need me, and those human children need me too. I even think the wife needs me.
Okay... enough of this for one night. I think I'm going to go read now. I hope everyone has a wonderful day tomorrow. I may post another blog in the morning, as there are many things to talk about other than my stress and worry. Before my tests, we're going to look at two more properties, but I think we've pretty much decided on a location. I hope!
3 comments:
Good luck. You and your family will remain in my thoughts and prayers! You have been such a wonderful presence in my blog for which I'm beyond greatful. I will think nothing but positive thoughts for you.
I've lived among humans for a while. Long enough to know that an "UGH!" sound means that something has happened which falls into the category, "this is not a good thing."
Trying to stay sane enough to start a business, while medical people are trying to drive you crazy, is not an easy accomplishment. Being self-employed is not for the faint of heart; neither is serious illness.
Hope you be healthy and happily located.
Blessings and Bear hugs.
And I need you too! You're going to be fine! Diva Decree!
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