"No, no, no, no, no! " Oh and this... ###### <----- that's me stomping.
It also would have been "Whhhhy????" Stated emphatically.
I was frustrated, irritated, and, let's face it... depressed. I hate the word, but it's true, and I'm going to have to do something about it.
Of course all of this was within my own little head... nothing surface. I didn't want to stress the wife. Her symptom flare ups have been a bit more frequent lately, and stress adds to it.
My first line of defense is getting back to exercising regularly, and eating right. I fell off the wagon, lost all motivation to do anything, and it's all been downhill for about 3 weeks now. It sucks!
I ran into a friend at the store (small town), and she said "I can tell you're struggling." GREAT! Then she says I need to do something for me. She then proceeds to remind me that I quit my job, and don't have anything now. Oh MY God... I came home ready to throw myself in the lake. Like I said, I'd swim, but still.
So, I didn't snap yesterday... I went for a walk instead, and because I don't like being alone, I took Tallulah. My little 3 pound baby was a trooper on that 3 mile escapade. Of course I carried her off and on, but she gave me someone to talk to so I wouldn't look crazy. Today, I'm going to take Cam for the walk... I can no longer take all three, because poor Tallulah gets dragged along.
So there you go...
I better get going. I have a lunch date with my happy friend... no, she really is happy, and she's sweet!! I used to be that way!!! ;p
Have a great Tuesday!!