I couldn't stay away. My goal was to be more productive, and I thought spending less time on the computer, would help me achieve that. I was productive... but felt like I was going in circles. That's my ADD. When I write, I'm totally focused. I may be scattered in my topics, because so many things are running through my head at once, but I'm focused on the writing itself. Make sense?
A lot of things happened, that had me wanting to run to my computer. I love sharing my views and hearing from others. It's kind of like having people to talk to! Remember, I'm a housewife. I don't get out a whole heck of a lot.
Anyway, these are the things I've actually accomplished in my absence:
Several emails were sent to the various organizations I would like to volunteer for, with only one response back thus far. Luckily it's the one that I would love more than anything, but the training doesn't begin until April. So, I suppose I should focus on other things until that time. I get the feeling once I'm trained, I'll be incredibly busy!
I found a local farmers market! I was very excited about this! Buying local and supporting our communities is important!
I registered for the Susan G. Komen 3-day!!! This is something very close to my heart. I've known too many people who have battled this cancer, and had a scare myself the latter part of 2011. I can't tell you how hard I prayed while on that table staring at the ceiling, as they did the biopsy. SO scary, and I am so thankful for healthy breasts!!!
I bought "The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People." I'm reading it, and working my way through the workbook. In some ways I think I've achieved some of the things in this book, through exactly what the author describes as "aha" moments, through life experiences... especially these past few days.
Aha moment 1: Saturday, I took the girl to a store so she could buy herself a new shirt, and whatever else she felt she needed for a party we were going to later that evening. I decided to wait it out in the car so I wouldn't feel compelled to buy these things for her. As I sat in the parking lot, I heard yelling and screaming coming from a few cars down. There was a man in a truck apparently trying to get this woman to reconcile their marriage. She was so upset. I couldn't hear what he was saying, which I was happy about. I saw her get in her car, and as she backed out, I saw the stickers on the back of her car. You know, the little family stickers, with the mommy, daddy, 3 kids, and dog. I saw the sport decals with the kids' names on them. I saw her pulling away, and the guy in the truck going the other way. Then I saw other people snickering... I don't know why they were snickering. Maybe they were embarrassed. I felt for this couple. I felt for the lives that were being pulled apart, and would never go back together quite the same again. Those feelings of anger, hurt, disappointment, frustration, betrayal... and God knows what else... I wouldn't want to feel those things. This became an aha moment for me as I watched the woman drive away with in her family vehicle with the stickers on the back. Looked like a happy family's car... but she was going through a rough time. We never know what people are going through, no matter how "perfect" things appear to be.
Aha moment 2: I posted a picture to my Facebook page with the caption "You were so busy judging others, that you left your closet open, and your skeletons fell out." Now, I have a ton of people on my FB page who aren't necessarily friends, but are acquaintances, who may not approve of my lifestyle. I was shocked that almost every single one of them "liked" that post. The aha moment here, as ridiculous as this may seem, because it's actually obvious, was that not one person likes being judged. Even those who seem to judge the most.
These moments changed my paradigm: How do I know? On our way to get the boy from his dad's house, I saw a woman pulled over on the side of the road. She was going through the drunk-driver scenario. I didn't judge her... I didn't think bad of her. First of all, I have no right to judge. Second, I don't know what this woman's story is. Paradigm changed.
This is all I've got tonight. I'm tired, and I've got goals to meet. I've started a new regime as far as taking care of myself which includes good sleeping patterns, and good activity patterns. Did you know you should give yourself at least a couple of hours between screen time (computer, TV, etc.) and bedtime? This is only one of the few things I'm attempting!
Goodnight all!! I'm so happy to be back from my very LONG break ;o)